Punishment Without Crime
(21 February - 2 March 2002)
2 March 2002
[from Charlottesville, Virginia]
-Did I really just get a good night's sleep?
-Andy Bragin: certified quote machine.
-Well, we DID hit 4 break teams in 5 in-rounds, beating 3 of them. But will I ever win a break-round again? We shall see. It wasn't Hybrids, but debating with Kate is always good.
-Getting along with people again is also good.
1 March 2002
[from Charlottesville, Virginia]
-Nothing more I can do. & the anger keeps growing.
28 February 2002
-Far too much of today has been spent playing computer games of one sort or another. I'm going to call it my reaction to a week where I realized, more profoundly than ever before, that I can't stand the educational system in this country. I know I've been a stuck record about it, but seriously!
-I maintain that weblog-to-weblog communication is not passive-aggressive innately. It's just communication, if somewhat indirect.
-My current FTP setup is really mandating that I archive this page far more frequently than I'm used to. It's a little annoying on days like today when I'm leaving in half an hour & just wanted to update, but hey, it's cheap!
-Yesterday broke the day before's records for unique visitors, page views, & such. Craziness.
27 February 2002
-Allow me to take a few entries to respond to some folks who are linked in my Exports section. It ain't passive-aggressive, it's direct...
-Jenny, EVERYbody voted for "Tangled Up in Blue", not nobody! It's ranked first of all songs! I don't understand your comment.
-Helen, there's several pros to APDA, methinks. Even though you don't read this site, as far as I know. Maybe you do. Regardless, I think a lotta the cons can go away if one takes a less competitive approach. It's not a new concept, & it's hard when everyone else is being competitive, but I maintain that people need to chill. About politics especially. For Christ's sake, managing a debate organization is really nothing special. I say this from the perspective of one on the Board.
-In other news, yesterday set all records on my website for traffic. I think it was the Dylan site. 303 page views is quite groovy, though. After all, it was a Tuesday. Why is Tuesday so much bigger than every other day for hits?!
-This is shaping up to be a poor excuse for a day. Just hours after telling Brandzy how much I'm sick of school & counting the minutes till I leave, my body volunteers me out of two classes. So now I'm in the computer lab, trying to recover the third class & wondering if my car will be extricable from the snow when I get off work at half past midnight. Gotta write another one-page response paper too. I don't understand the need for one-page response papers, but I guess in the end, all I'm here for is the one-page response paper we call a "diploma".
-Never thought I'd see Lisha cap a day of lengthy entries with "No man is an island." I guess that's good & bad.
-The snow is so beautiful, but my shoes have holes in them. Maybe everyone's right & it really is time for new shoes. I love the peace of snow's effect on the world, though. Sometimes I think the prescription for this planet is a Narnian snow of about 2 decades...
26 February 2002
-Darn! Pat (find the link in BP Exports, which is linked above) beat me to the test-idea. Except his is APDA Dinos & mine was going to be 'Deis Debaters. Same difference. Apparently, in Pat's opinion, I most resemble Chris Park. While I never PM, that's a comparison I find favorable, so I'll run with it.
-The Dylan List will be up shortly. Probably shortly enough for you to actually click that link. You'll be very surprised by how many different songs Sepdog, Jenny, & myself came up with so far. The fact that this table will look like the OTY-board reminds me that I need to update the ACTual OTY-board sometime today.
-The water here at Windsor Village is simply non-functional. No hope there.
-Now Steve-o's on board the Dylan train! Who will be next?
25 February 2002
-Em has a weblog now!! Stop the presses! I'm very excited for her... go visit many times daily! I know I'll be doing so...
-It's nice to know when I've had absolutely no impact on someone's life, especially when I tried really hard to have some sort of positive impact. Sigh.
-The APDAweb Forum may not be replacing APDAnet, but at least it's finally discussing my big problem with APDAnet. Other than that virus that went through & made me think some Dartmouth person was after me.
-Sometimes, I really feel like putting my fist through a plate of glass. I don't feel this often, & I wouldn't act on it, but frustration really gets to me a lot these days, especially as March approaches. Ah well, it's nothing new.
-I almost had the scariest thing ever teach me a major lesson about backing up my files on this page. The FTP thing here in the Library computer lab went crazy & deleted my Introspection file. Horror of horrors! February was almost lost to posterity. Fortunately, Em had the page cached on Netscape (I must put my tail between my legs & begrudgingly admit that Netscape has some uses) & was able to send me the source-code, intact. That was far closer than I would've liked. From now on, there's going to be some major backing-up here at the 'Mid!!
-Hopefully, Sep is okay with the following idea. I just think it would be cool to make a master list of Dylan fans' opinions of the best of his songs. Steve-o? Gris? Fish? I'm looking at you guys...
24 February 2002
-The all-Boston all-the-time bus (with BU, Harvard, & MIT) was rather fun. Even if Pat didn't eat 40 Slim-Jims. & we waited for a while in Harvard Square's coldness. Ah, home.
-A few good things from last weekend, in spite of the horror. I guess you could call this my defense to Kate & Jenny for not going to American, though my actual defense is that it's really far away (& the next 2 weekends are going to be even farther away) & that Yale is where my whole team was going. But here's extra good things in the midst of otherwise no fun: (1) Emily won the tournament!; (2) I talked to some relatively random people who I never knew that well, but have proved themselves to be quite cool; (3) I won a coffee maker (!!) & a cassette player instead of trophies. I actually traded a rice cooker to Steph for the coffee maker, since I am not a rice addict. Also, I guess I'm the only person left on the planet who listens to tapes. No one wanted the other cassette player, either.
-Also, I initially wondered who Helen was talking about, but then I remembered what GBJ stands for.
23 February 2002
[from New Haven, Connecticut]
-There are but 2 people in my life whose presence I cannot deal with.
-Well, a perfectly fitting end to the worst debate weekend I've had in at least 2 years. I had 5 utterly abysmal rounds of debate, where I almost forgot why I debate at all. This was followed by not breaking due to a 3rd round drop & tanking from a judge I forgot to scratch after he tanked us last year. I love losing rounds that the other team concedes. Did I mention this may have been the worst debate weekend in 2 full years?
-After last night, combined with the ultimate fate of the weekend, I feel March closing in quite suddenly. This is distressing.
-People on APDA really seem to think religious people are all complete idiots. How is this more logical than having faith? It's the same blindness on both sides & yet each sees the absurd flaw with the other.
22 February 2002
[from Princeton, New Jersey]
-From the random but extremely frustrating file, someone from Dartmouth (still can't tell who, but the e-mail's originating from the D'mouth campus) is hijacking my e-mail account &/or re-labelling their own to look like my Brandeis account! I keep getting messages about "sending mail from off-campus" & last night Em got a phantom e-mail not from me. Apparently they tried this once for Em's account too. People are really silly that they don't know about full headers on e-mails revealing where an e-mail ACTually originates. However, this is still really random & annoying... so check your origination IP addresses if there seems to be something really random from "me".
-Yale today... I hope Drew has some new case ideas. Though I guess I really do have plenty of old cases, though I doubt we'll haul out Les Miz again! Should be a fun time, though.
21 February 2002
[from Princeton, New Jersey]
-& we're back online! I already e-mailed my administrator about the approximate 3-hour suspension of service here @ BP, but I guess I'm a little more conscious of this stuff than I should be.
-Also, thanks to all who remembered my birthday yesterday. Even though I'm not TECHnically 22 till 2:56 this morning Eastern time, since it was 4 minutes till midnight Pacific time over at the Carson-Tahoe Hospital in 1980. So I've got 2 more hours, really! Or something. Either way, I'm just old.
-I swear I'm going to do something productive later today. Even if it is only play more Civ-3. Yes, the game's a wee bit addictive, but I'm also aware of my graduation requirements, thanks much. Fun stuff is planned for this evening anyway.
-So I was sitting in Whig's main room (with the big TV & the pool table) watching some old SNL reruns with Pton folk, when they announce Ben Folds Five & said band starts playing "Brick". Immediately I was transported to the last night of the Emory tourney my senior year, hanging out with Floridians at some hotel & pulling up to a parking garage when that song came on the radio. Chris Pezon & I started screaming along with the song, playing at decibels to bring down half of Atlanta. Then he & Leslie Rumbaudt & I talked till dawn, when I spent the "best dollar I ever spent", ripped up & given to the most expensive car I could find, with an accompanying anti-capitalist note under the windshield wiper. Always wondered what that person thought of the note, littering pieces of dollar-bill over his/her car. Regardless, that talk was a night I thought I was on the verge of insanity, & I really appreciated two people who ended up having virtually no impact on the remainder of my life. A little sad. But I wish I could send some message back to that kid that was me 4 years ago, & tell him that it worked out, that I ended up making it, despite some setbacks & trials. & maybe I wouldn't have to have such pain in my voice singing along, or memory looking back.
Introspection, My Worst
Ye Olde Archive (Past)
The Blue Pyramid (Source)
Tell me this is not the end...*
*-lyrics from an as-yet unreleased song, "The Same Old Frontiers", by SWClayton.