It’s been really hard to breathe lately. Maybe I need to do more yoga. Maybe I just need to swallow my pride already. Maybe there are no right answers, like Rabbit surmises in the comic below, only a vague attempt to avoid the skyward pianos that loom and always threaten to fall.<\/p>\n
I’m going to DC this weekend. Hanging out at Brandzy’s place, though I won’t see him much. Talking to high school debaters at Nationals about our upcoming Camp, our debate program for any potential Rutgers prospects. Getting a bit more familiar with Public Forum debate.<\/p>\n
I went to the Allison Weiss show in Princeton on Wednesday. It was quite awesome, a much better sampling of her in her element than the prior show in New York. She asked for requests and I called one out (July 25, 2007) and she played it when she said it wasn’t on the setlist and used this to encourage more requests. I bought a dinosaur T-shirt from her after the show. She played all the songs I wanted to hear, plus a new one, penultimately, that broke my heart. It’s called “I’ll Be OK”. I’m not so sure.<\/p>\n
There’s something about short, direct, declarative sentences that feels like control. It’s probably very different than how I usually feel, the rambly arcs of poetic lyrical interpretability. How much of all this is about control? Pride or control? How much of self-preservation requires those elements? How much do I care?<\/p>\n
Yesterday I got a brief vision of a possible summer plan with the laptop-based webcam capturing me telling stream-of-consciousness stories while I drove across the country. Little video postcards of life on the road, free, carefree, hopeful. It doesn’t feel real. It feels like a clown suit I’m trying to want to put on. I don’t know how to pretend to want things that are different than everything I always tried to want.<\/p>\n
Everything is harder since I tried to take control.<\/p>\n
Allison Weiss at Small World Coffee
\nPrinceton, NJ
\n25 May 2011<\/p>\n
I’m Ready
\nI Don’t Want to Be Here
\nI Was an Island
\nNothing Left
\nJuly 25, 2007
\nDon’t Go
\nTry to Understand
\nWhy Bother
\nBaby
\nKids (partial)
\nYou + Me + Alcohol
\nThe End
\nOne-Way Love
\nWait for Me
\nGhost Stories
\nLet Me Go
\nI’ll Be OK
\nFingers Crossed<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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