{"id":2399,"date":"2013-05-31T15:28:06","date_gmt":"2013-05-31T19:28:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/?p=2399"},"modified":"2013-05-31T15:28:06","modified_gmt":"2013-05-31T19:28:06","slug":"may-is-the-worst","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/archives\/2399","title":{"rendered":"May is the Worst"},"content":{"rendered":"

I just spent a fair bit of time re-reading my posts from past Mays on this blog. There are five years’ worth of them and they ain’t pretty. Actually, some of them are kind of pretty; I think a lot of the writing I did in May 2011<\/a> may actually have been some of my best in a while, even if it’s extraordinarily laden with pain. But you get the point. I’m almost never having a good time in May.<\/p>\n

Things often end in May. People make jokes about the Harry Potter<\/i> series always putting undue emphasis and tension on May because that’s the natural end of the school year, but I always feel like reality actually conforms to this pattern. And I know that somehow most people like April and May because they feel this bizarre boost in springtime, easily the worst season of the four for my money. I have lived long enough to know that early April through early June is the worst time in my life almost every year and by far the most consistently bad. Maybe I’m misaligned, but I know my alignment all the same.<\/p>\n

This May hasn’t been trend-setting in its badness, but more indicative of the kind of malaise and slow descent this season always seems to mark. I was sick for most of the month – probably about 3 full weeks of it after getting sick on May Day. I suspect I had some sort of infection, though the doctors insisted it was either allergies or an especially lingering cold. I’m still not exactly 100%, but I’ve probably been 95 or 97% the last couple days, so I’m definitely through whatever it was. I’ll probably feel 100% on June 7th, because that’s just how these things tend to go for me. I don’t mean to be fatalistic, but I’m one of the only people I know who doesn’t seem to be a total determinist lately, so being resigned to a bad 70-day stretch every year is pretty good by comparison, right?<\/p>\n

In any event, today is an event! My last day at work before my two months off till August (though I will have to come in a few days to tie up some loose ends and trade for the first week in August as you’ll see below…), the end of a desperately bleh month, and the return of my girlfriend from Costa Rica tomorrow. Things are looking up. And it seems to be a May tradition on this blog to post a little graphic indicating my summer “tour” for the year, or where I’m planning on traversing to with the opportunity to make use of the time that I’m given. So I don’t really want to make this exceptional, since this May hasn’t even been exceptional in its badness, just kinda averagely awful…<\/p>\n

…But I don’t really have a theme for my summer travel. Part of this May has been just feeling totally uninspired. I am almost starting to get inspired for when I will be inspired and I have lots of resolutions for the summer. You’ve heard some of them before, things like actually sending American Dream On<\/i> and The Best of All Possible Worlds<\/i> to agents and\/or publishers for the first time in 3 years, or actually writing new fiction for a similarly unprecedented stretch. I need to get more active, even if it’s just walking around Highland Park or something. Or doing yoga again. I would like to read more and more intensely, to spend more time deliberately and investing in projects I want to do. Heck, maybe the Song Quiz will finally happen this summer. Really.<\/p>\n

So far all May has brought me is joining Twitter. Seriously.<\/a> And I think the main thing I’m going to do with that is post links to posts here, assuming I actually start writing more. Which makes this all rather meta and self-referential. Which I guess goes well with starting to read David Foster Wallace’s recent biography last night, Every Love Story is a Ghost Story<\/i>. Best title ever and makes the synergy between he and Adam Duritz of Counting Crows (such connections discussed here<\/a>) even more poignant. So far I’m up till DFW’s early grad school years and the writing isn’t really seeming worthy of DFW and CC, but maybe that’s just because I never<\/i> read biographies and so the flat journalistic and presumptive tone is simply unfamiliar to me. Reading non-fiction, though, always convinces me even more that there’s far more truth in fiction. The things taken as given in non-fiction, the sweeping unjustified generalizations, are kind of shocking. It’s a way of transforming hearsay into fact. All the same, I’m enjoying the experience of the book. I think we all just miss Wallace way too much.<\/p>\n

Anyway, I need a title for the tour and a theme because I like pretending my life is a book tour or maybe it’s just that the Summer Tour themology is fun. I think May was way too short on fun. This summer, the first order of business is fun.<\/p>\n

But I can share the tour dates and the little graphic will have to wait till (gasp!) June. Thank God it’s going to be June. Soon.<\/p>\n

15-16 June: Upstate NY (Wallflowers\/Counting Crows show)
\n17-19 June: New Brunswick, NJ
\n20-27 June: Los Angeles, CA
\n28 June – 4 July: Albuquerque, NM
\n—
\n28-29 July: Helsinki, Finland
\n29 July – 3 August: Paris, France
\n4-8 August: Berbigui\u00e8res, France
\n8-10 August: Paris, France<\/p>\n

It doesn’t look too glamorous like that, maybe because it’s not a road-trip and thus the locations are few. But the durations are long and the locations are awesome<\/i>. So let’s make plans! Let’s have fun<\/i>. Let’s not revisit May for a while, shalln’t we?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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