{"id":2198,"date":"2011-11-10T07:40:48","date_gmt":"2011-11-10T12:40:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/?p=2198"},"modified":"2011-11-10T07:41:19","modified_gmt":"2011-11-10T12:41:19","slug":"2198","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/archives\/2198","title":{"rendered":"Too Much Space"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>My soul hurts today.<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"525\" height=\"386\" src=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/nExwBJZQafA\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>I wonder whether YouTube or this blog will last longer.  One would think that by the time this question needed answering, the answer wouldn&#8217;t much matter.  But then again, there are times when Angelfire would have looked permanent, or MySpace permanently dominant.  There&#8217;s really no telling what&#8217;s going to last in this world.<\/p>\n<p>Tell me about it.<\/p>\n<p>If you&#8217;re reading this sometime after YouTube has folded, somehow, just imagine a song of bittersweet hopelessness that nevertheless speaks to some kind of hope.  I think if I could just cleanly give up, then things wouldn&#8217;t be so hard.  But there&#8217;s such a strong will to live and hope and try that it keeps the nerves sufficiently sensitized so that things remain painful.  I&#8217;ve never had the capacity for just shutting down emotionally, in part because I probably think it&#8217;s immoral, so I just stumble through this bleary fog of unhappy accidents and drifty stabby memories.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m ready to skip to the end of the book just so I know what it&#8217;s reasonable to put myself through.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>My soul hurts today. I wonder whether YouTube or this blog will last longer. One would think that by the time this question needed answering, the answer wouldn&#8217;t much matter. But then again, there are times when Angelfire would have looked permanent, or MySpace permanently dominant. There&#8217;s really no telling what&#8217;s going to last in [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[48,17,33],"tags":[5,60,73],"class_list":["post-2198","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-a-day-in-the-life","category-quick-updates","category-the-long-tunnel","tag-a-day-in-the-life","tag-quick-updates","tag-the-long-tunnel"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2198","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2198"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2198\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2200,"href":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2198\/revisions\/2200"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2198"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2198"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bluepyramid.org\/storey\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2198"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}